This morning I went for a walk. Perhaps it was the poor air quality, my body started not feeling so good. My temperature went up again in the afternoon. Victor seemed to be sneezing too. It may be allergy due to the bad air. But it can be a cold or something else. (It is quite difficult to be free from each other's germs.)
In the past few months, my sole focus had been on getting ready for the next shot. Now that the shots are over and as I look ahead to the next stage, I felt so stuck as if I cannot move forward. Today I also read a book on health (from another breast cancer survivors) - it seems impossible for me to live such a life - eating healthy and organic food (they are expensive), making fresh fruit and vegetable juice everyday and doing all the "right" things... So I felt quite discouraged. I really don't expect that it would be the hardest when I am close to the end of the tunnel.
I am praying that the Lord would show me what I need to learn in this part of the journey, that I won't miss out anything He wants to instruct me. I want to fight whatever infection (or fever) well. I pray that the Lord would give me wisdom and direct me to the healthy life style that is appropriate for me. May He help me to surrender and trust in His sovereign will in my life.
願主耶穌給你諸般智慧和洞察力，能夠找到一條出路。真感到峰迴路轉。千萬不要灰心。功課再難，也與祂同走每一步。多點休息。放鬆些。繼續為妳和Victor祈禱。
ReplyDelete每一天Day by Day
ReplyDelete每一天所渡過的每一刻，我得著能力勝過試探；
我依靠天父週詳的供應，我不用再恐慌與掛念。
祂的心極仁慈無可測度，祂每天都有最好安排，
不論憂或喜祂慈愛顯明，勞苦中祂賜平安
每一天主自己與我相親，每時刻賜下格外憐憫；
我掛慮主願安慰與擔當，祂的名是策士與權能。
祂保護祂的兒女與珍寶，祂熱心必要成全這事;
‘你日子如何力量也如何’，這是祂向我應許。
每當遭遇患難求主搭救，全靠我主真誠的應許；
我確信主的體貼與安慰，深信聖經應許不落空。
懇求主，患難困苦中拯救，平穩與試煉皆由父旨，
我一生年日便如飛而去，直待進應許美地。
今天唱了一首很好又簡單的詩歌，與你分享：
ReplyDeleteI know the Lord will make a way for me,
I know the Lord will make a way for me.
If I look to Him and pray,
Darkest night will turn to day ,
I know the Lord will make a way for me.
現在最重要的是以一個平常心去生活，盡量放鬆自己，多休息，不要令自己進入緊張勞累的生活中，如果每天在壓力下生活，吃最天然健康的食物也沒用。心情才最重要。
有時做人越簡單越好，不要想太多，每天能吃、能喝、能睡，已充滿感恩，快樂地生活，我想是神所希望見到的。天父連小草也照顧，何況是我們呢？
學習放鬆倚靠，正是祂要我們不斷學習的功課，祂已為我們預備道路。
祝電療一切順利，別忘記有一班人為你和victor禱告，你們不是單打獨打鬥的。
英國前首相邱吉爾的名言—「我們好像走進一條好黑好長的隧道，但最後我們會見到光。」痛苦好像沒有盡頭，但別忘記尋找自己的心靈資源，透過默想神的話語、靜觀練習，重新得力。正如美國黑人民權領袖馬丁路德的名言「我們可以戰勝﹗(We shall overcome)」。我們身邊仍有朋友和家人呢﹗
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